April 24, 2008
Ultrasound booked
I got a sense of release when I was able to get the authorization from the insurance in less than 24 hours. Unfortunately, I couldn’t get booked to do the double procedure of spot mammogram and ultrasound until next Friday. That is May 2 @ 2:30 p.m. for those who believe in powerful positive thought at the precise moment in time. Thanks to everyone who has given me much love and support. Especially all of the women who have identified as having recent benign scares in the past 12 months. It helps. So now being at peace during the waiting is the practice for me.
Vanity Part 1 - I have these dark ringed sunburned rings on my cheeks that makes me look like that old cigarette commercial where the guy would say “I’d rather fight than switch.” I guess rock sunbathing like an Iguana you have to pay the price. I’m just hoping people don’t think they are insomnia induced tear rings. Humm maybe the sunburn is mixed in with this other stuff. I just know I want them to go away.
Looking forward to ginormous hugs from everyone I see. Yeah! Michelle, Mark & Angela are coming to town.
Paix
Laurie,
Of course i knew something was bothering you as soon as you walked in, but I immediately thought i was going to have to go and kick some butt for you. But, after I looked at you agin I thought maybe she’s fine, you had sort of a peaceful look on your face and I thought ohhhhh, she’s back from the retreat and is just very rested. Then you dropped the news. I have never expericed the blip at 3 o’clock so I cannot imagine, well I can imagine but I cannot fully feel the range of emotions that come with it. I have only known 2 people that have been told that and yes, both of them are fine, it was nothing.
Laurie, because you are an oncology nurse you do know both sides. You know what happen if it’s nothing and you know what happens if it is something. In these cases ignorance might be bliss……I’m tending to lean towards it’s nothing.
Just remind God, that when you prayed to give you something to get your thoughts off the girls at work you meant with a stary cat or something like that. For all of you that are still questioning if God is a man…doesn’t this answer that…..just kidding. I mask my fear with humor, but the fact that I am on here even sharing is a miracle and it means I care so much about you. Usually I would run ad hide and avoid the issue until it was resolved.
So through out your day imagine all of your friends with our hands together in a circle with you in the middle, we are protecting what we consider someone very special. And I am ready at a moments notice if I do need to kick some butt!!
I love you, Judy
Judy - Thank you so much. I love the image of the circle of friends surrounding me. That is how I feel, knowing that I am not alone and the circle of love does surround me wherever I go in life. I’m delighted you have overcome your fear and our willing to share your thoughts with me. The sentiments are wonderful and so are you. How did you know I needed some butt kicking too? Glad to know I have you on my side. I Love you, too.